GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>=./

2.31A.M~

Probably , tomorow i'm going back to school...
tonight...
i'm not into my bed , brains still working out in responsibility...

i just back from Queensbay ...
went to Paddinton Pancake House to have high tea with my bro , cousin and him...
beside me sitting a pair of ...erm...couple...
with both eyebrows squished unwillingly together in the middle of her lower forehead...
and with the irritated expression showed on his face...
common sense...
they just have some fight...

well...
it should be something which had just happened ...
is she receive a call or some messaoges which irritate him??
or discuss bout something with some theories which both side are strongly stand with by their own judgement???
or...maybe paddinton 's chef too slow motion ??? =P~~

If not , why they choose to go such place to show faces to each other...??-.-'
must be happend after they had reached there.. XP

i heard words out from her mouth ,
what's it about i can't asure with ,
BUT!!
girls' god give ability - SIX SENSE ,
i knew they sound sad ....

this immediately followed by sacarstic scold from him...
*he sound harsh and bit loud*
how terrible he is!!
well...i just dislike him...
i know it's not fair to judge people before clear with the situation...
but...his face and those sacarstic words just make me feel so uncomfortable and dislike him..

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well....minutes past...and that time i was totally distracted by my delicious appetizer XD...
when i start to cut my juicy chicken meat with bacon and sauce on top ..
the couple caught my attention again....
i saw the girl was folding something....
and the guy just ignored her and just keep on concentrated on his plate of erm...'american stack with honey'....

*i knew it because it actually was my first choice when i settle down myself at my place....but... too expensive... T____________T *

she still folding....
he still ignoring her....
i still pretending ....
pretending enjoying the surrounding of paddinton and my food XD....

*well...actually .... quite obvious ...but guess they don't notice me....XD*

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she break the wall between both of them first...
he still ignoring...

and...
i saw she hand out her origami...
which is....
....
!!!!

'SORRY DEAR I LOVE YOU <3'>

well..i frowned there....
it's just so unbelievable...
this origami words with a love shape at the back were folded by her in such short time and at that kind of situation....

when she try to hand the origami words to him...
i saw tears dropped from her eyes....
but he still ignoring her!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* i just feel like box him !!!>=/ *

when my expression almost attract the couple , he stand up and leave!!
HE LEFT !!!!!
wihout any reply and not even take the 'gift' from her!!!!

STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!
i hate him!!!!
how can he did that to her???!!!
i don't know what happened between them!!
but at least she cried and she did something to save the situation!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Guys!!!! don' t ever do that to your girl !!
Think twice...
Save your relationship!!!
Things started to mess up!!
Girls nowadays need to say sorry first ...
Guys never want to lose their FACE...
which is so EGO!!
>=./
Put down your EGONESS!!!
Don't hurt your girl!!!

Stress~*

We deal with stress daily. In our every-day vocabulary "stressed" becomes an emotion as in:

"How are you?"

"I'm feeling happy, how are you?"

"I'm feeling stressed."

It is a negative word, and is not an emotion we aspire to...

But if "stress" comes from the nervous system, does it affect our body?
Does it affect us physically?

''I'm depressed!!!!!''

''I lost my sleep yesterday and that's why...''

Why does stress cause us to lose sleep, break out, and become depressed?

First, let me clarify:

Stressors are internal or external factors that produce stress. Stress is the subjective response to the factors . All humans and animals have developed internal mechanisms through evolution that allow our bodies to react to a stressor.

The term "stress" has a negative connotation, but it can also be a positive thing, such as when performers go onstage, they rely on stress to provide the adrenaline rush necessary to helping them perform. Most stress is not due to life-threatening situations, but rather to every-day occurrences such as public speaking, or meeting new people.

I'd like to point out also that the intensity of stress depends on how it is perceived. For example, a deadline contraction can be for some people an opportunity to manage their time more efficiently, while for others it can be the end of the world.

There are FOUR categories of stress.

The first is Survival Stress.

The phrase "fight or flight" comes from a response to danger that people and animals have programmed into themselves. When something physically threatens us, our bodies respond automatically with a burst of energy so as to allow us to survive the dangerous situation (fight) or escape it all together (flight).

The second is Internal Stress.

Internal stress is when people make themselves stressed. This often happens when people worry about things that can't be controlled or put themselves in already-proven stress-causing situations.

The third category is Environmental Stress.

It is the opposite of Internal Stress, it is caused by the things surrounding us that could cause stress, such as pressure from school or family, large crowds, or excessive noise.

The fourth category is called Fatigue and Overwork.

This kind of stress builds up over a long time and can take a hard toll on your body. It can be caused by working too much or too hard at a job, school, or home. It can also be caused by not knowing how to manage your time well or how to take time out for rest and relaxation. This can be one of the hardest kinds of stress to avoid because many people feel it is out of their control.

Stress affects us physically, emotionally, behaviorally and mentally.

When there is a threat, the body physically reacts by increasing the adrenaline flow, tensing muscles, and increasing heart rate and respiration. Emotions, such as anxiety, irritability, sadness and depression, or extreme happiness and exhilaration come out. Behaviorally, one might possibly experience reduced physical control, insomnia, and irrational behavior.

Mentally, stress may severely limit the ability to concentrate, store information in memory and solve problems.

Has anyone ever told you they were stressed out because of acne???

The fact that they are stressing out about it might be making the problem worse.

How can what happens on your face be related to what happens to your central nervous system??

Acne forms when oily secretions from glands beneath the skin plug up the pores. There is a stress hormone known as corticotrophin-releasing hormone (CRH) . An increase in the CRH signals oil glands in the body urge the oil glands to produce more, which can exacerbate oily skin, thus leading to acne.

If people are stressed, they may lose sleep due to the fact that there is something on their mind, making it hard for them to stop worrying about it long enough to fall asleep.

However, stress hormones also make it harder to sleep.

CRH has a stimulating effect and when it is produced in the body in greater quantities, it makes the person stay awake longer and sleep less deeply.

In this way, stress is also linked to depression, because people who do not get enough "slow-wave" sleep may be more prone to depression.

The hippocampus is an important part of our brain and its functions. The hippocampus is responsible for consolidating memories into a permanent store . The hippocampus is the part of the brain that signals when to shut off production of stress hormones called cortisol. However, these hormones can damage the hippocampus. A damaged hippocampus causes cortisol levels to get out of control, which compromises memory and cognitive function, creating a vicious cycle.

Well...well....

In conclusion, stress is not just simply a process that overtakes the central nervous system.

It affects the body in many different and seemingly unrelated ways.

To live a healthy lifestyle includes striking a good balance between work, down time, and sleep, which should help reduce the effects of stress.^-^

Now , 11.27p.m....

i'm in my masumoto pyjamas ...
by the way , this piece of pyjamas is one of his favourite...

under my dim orange bed light... supposingly , i should have my sleep right now ...
but.. the love song playing so emo'ng ...
usually these songs don't really work on me...
they always act as some kind of lovely melody which let me fall in my sweet dreams...

weird...
i just don't understand why ...
there's something running non-stop in my mind ...
they keep on running....
not even a second let by...

i know what happened to me...
but , i thought it solved!!!
what happen???!!!
go away!!!!!!!!!
i hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why?????!!! why you never think for me?????
don't you tired for keep on running in my mind??!!!!
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*cry.....*

Rainy day~

i'm sitting quitely in my living room...which always occupied by me..
i can only hear the rain drops sound and the click click sound o my keyboard...
something in my mind confusing me...
i can't tell how i feel right now...

i went through many forums...
many articles...
many complains....
life life life...
i always believe life controlled by ourselves...
we want it to be a happy way or we choose to dissapoint people who believe we can live happily...

sometimes , ' haiz ' like to be used by people...
and everything just thrown out and let it be...
things happened happen...
but people likes to give themselves reason to avoid things happened on them...
leave them unsolved and threw them back of their mind...

times go on... with the problem unsolved...
when the day come....
it come...
but when it arrived...
everythings late...
no reason anymore...
no excuse...
no way to solve...

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY i'm BACKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!

'BEAR BEAR BEAR BEAR~~~~ LALALALALALALA ~~~.......HUHUUUUUUUUUU '

A new member came to my Bear Family!!! HE is ........BEAR BEAR!!!!!=D

Second week of Feb , which is a special day which is sooooo wellknown and soooo important for lovie birdiessss~~~~

lalalalala...

HERE HE IS!!!!




NAME :: Bear Bear
AGE :: 11days
COLOR:: Yellowish white
HEIGHT:: 75cm
WEIGHT:: Too light till no figure shown on the weightskill -.-''
HOBBIES:: Let me hug !!*-*v
AMBITION:: Become my favourite member in my Bear Family !
NUMBER OF TATTOO:: 1 , on the left feet




HIS TATTOO!!!*-*